Back in the Saddle Again

This is so true!



Sweaty as hell



After 3 days off...not a good idea



Where all the magic happens


I have been away for some time. On the weight loss front, things are finally looking up & the scale is headed down. After feeling discouraged with Weight Watchers for a while, I sought out other support. I joined TOPS, a non profit organization for weight loss support. The "meetings" were small, yet everyone was very supportive. In the 3 weeks that I was a member we only had one actual meeting because our leader has a lot going on & doesn't have enough time to juggle everything on her plate. (No pun intended) :) TOPS is geared around the exchange system, which for me is confusing as hell because I can't seem to get POINTS out of my head! After 3 weeks of TOPS, I renewed my monthly pass with WW.

In the past I have blamed the program for me failing, but I can only blame myself for not working the program. There has never been a week when I tracked & exercised sufficiently that I did not lose weight. The last time I joined WW I weighed 257.8lbs. My new starting weight, 251. My 10% goal is 25 pounds. I have never made it that far while on WW. I have set a goal for myself & I am more determined than EVER to reach that goal.

I am allowed 31 points per day, which is hard to reach some days. I find myself going to bed with 8 points left for the day & I know I need to eat all of my points. However, Friday I ate all of my daily points & 8 weekly points! We decided to go "out to eat" & I am just not ready for a typical restaurant setting yet, as my willpower is still strengthening.

We landed at Subway. I have been eating Subway at least three times a week for lunch at work. I got a pizza. What the hell was I thinking. As if a 14 point pizza wasn't enough, I ate a cookie & half of the hubby's. 7.5 points. Over 21 points for supper. It was just one time, but that is the same rationalization that has kept me from reaching my goals.

Last night at the gym I struggled. I struggled because I missed 3 days of working out. I have to weigh in on Thursday, and I am very excited about the future. I lost 3.4 my first week (6-29) and I am looking forward to my 1st five pound star this Thursday. I am working on a list of goals & rewards to post. There may be a new Dooney in my future, or possibly the Open Heart bangles I have been lusting after.

Whatever the reward, I know that I must persevere and bust my ass. The work is hard, the effort constant, but I am ready to feel the satisfaction of my dedication. The fruits of my labor, so to speak. I know that blogging keeps me accountable, so here I am. I hope everyone is having a fantastic Monday.